Overcoming Postpartum Depression
***Disclaimer: I am not a healthcare professional, just a peer explaining my experience and making recommendations that I hope someone finds helpful. If you are currently experiencing postpartum depression or any other mental illness, please seek professional medical assistance.***
Postpartum depression is an extremely difficult illness to navigate. It is also an unspoken enemy of sorts. Everyone is always so excited to hear of the new baby that no one wants to dare even whisper the term "baby blues." It is both a very real and very painful experience to go through. If you're lucky, your doctor will mention it a few times and maybe ask about it briefly towards the end of your pregnancy. Anyone who has experienced it can testify that it is beyond hard.
Postpartum depression (or PPD) is different for everyone. For some, like myself, it creeps up on you. Personally, mine took some time to show its ugly head. I remember bringing my baby home and being so thankful that she was safe and healthy. My daughter's birth was challenging for both of us, and I was so relieved to not be pregnant anymore. My energy returned almost immediately, and I thought I was finally out of the woods. Unfortunately, I was sorely mistaken.
I started showing signs of PPD about 3 or 4 weeks after we brought our baby home. I started noticing the changes my body had gone through, and I felt that I had become less attractive. My stomach hung and my hips were bigger. My figure was drastically different and even my face showed wear and tear. After another week or two, I had become obsessed with my reflection in the mirror and weight. Around 2 months postpartum, I had rapidly tailspin into a state of self-hatred and starvation. I would go days eating only a bowl of yogurt and nutritional shakes, and that was when I ate anything at all. I smoked cigarettes to curb my appetite. My milk supply dried up, and we were forced to switch to formula full-time (we had previously been pumping, only formula feeding when needed.) This turn of events only made me even more desperate and bitter.
I changed during this time. I was impatient, I couldn't sleep, I was hateful and angry at myself and my body, and I expected the world from the people around me. I was one of the lucky ones. I sought help when I realized just how bad I had gotten. I confided in my partner, my family, and my counselor. I was able to get help and I know that I'm alive today because of that decision.
PPD comes in many shapes and sizes. It sucks the life out of you and can be hard to recognize if it comes on slowly like it did with me. Some symptoms to look out for include:
- mood swings
- anxiety
- sadness
- irritability
- feeling overwhelmed
- crying spells
- reduced concentration
- appetite problems
- trouble sleeping
- Mass.gov
- Postpartum.net
- PPD hotline: https://www.postpartum.net/get-help/help-for-moms/
- Helpful links for loved ones: https://www.postpartum.net/learn-more/useful-links/
- Mayoclinic.org
- Apa.org
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